Coping Mechanism: Cycle Commute Pondering Time.

Alright, so cycling to work has been awesome. It’s let me work on my legs, which I’m pretty sure I’ve been neglecting for what seems like years [which has probably been actually about eighteen months, max]. For the first couple of weeks of cycle-commuting, my legs would start burning after just a couple of miles, as if battery acid were coursing just underneath my skin. Now, my legs tire less easily [if even slightly so]. I have started to feel less-worn after my commutes, to bounce back more quickly and completely. I find myself wanting the ride; this weekend, I wanted the ride by mid-Sunday, and was sad I didn’t have work to ride to [or free time to take a ride] on Monday, and was almost-mad that I had to drive in today [to make it to other engagements after work on time].

But cycle-commuting has more than just positive physical externalities [ha] for me. Cycling to work gives me between twenty and thirty minutes of time for whatever thinking I’d like to engage in. No music, no phone, no others to talk to [except for quick "heys" said to other passing cyclists and walkers/joggers]. I used to have regular commutes that ranged between forty-five and seventy-five minutes that I took in my car. I can confidently say that I could not reliably think as much as I do now during those lengthier commutes, probably due to distractions [music, mobile phone, passengers].

The commute time is my own personal time, where I haven’t anyone else to focus on. I can think about whatever I’d like to during the rides, even if that whatever is actually nothing. I’ve thought about lots of innanities. I’ve thought about plenty of hefty things. [The $64,000 Questions don't stop coming, don't stop jockeying with each other to occupy my mind for stretches of time, stretches of road; from 49th to Nasco, all along Shoal Creek, between stopsigns, during those laps I take when the thoughts won't loose their visegrip hold.]

More about this later, as Cycle Commute Pondering Time makes more headway on my innanities and my $64,000 Questions.

Trying to Keep the Chuck Yeager Drawl.

I graduated. It actually happened. I held my diploma in my hands. I quickly handed it off to my family to take home, to save the diploma from myself. Read the rest of this entry »

Stretch.

…that’s what today is, at least to complete The Meme. Read the rest of this entry »

Keeping On.

Today explodes my happiness meme. Read the rest of this entry »

Again, With Feeling!

It’s happening again, my muscle spasm. I can feel it forming in just the same place it did last time. This is creepy; last time there was a span of about six weeks in-between the first shooting pains on the tops of my shoulders and the muscle spasm. This time the shooting pains happened on Tuesday, and my right arm went numb last night, and now there’s the slight twinge of oh-this-is-going-to-hurt, which I’m hoping I can shunt away from actual muscle spasm until after Brighton [which is tomorrow]. Read the rest of this entry »

Stream-of-Metacognitive-Conscious. [Metaconscious?]

I can feel the march of time pull my feet in lockstep beat slowly down the path of madness. Or at least I could. I had a meltdown yesterday, and I feel so much better from that. Poor Meredith O. had to put up with me the day before that and the day of, and I do feel bad about that. Of course, we had the very predictable discussion about why I bottle-up and then explode repeatedly. Still-predictable-but-not-quite-so-much discussion also ensued, including what I’m afraid of, why I feel the way that I feel, and how to “deal” with it. Read the rest of this entry »

Volley Two + SCUBA.

I think my mother is going to drive me insane. I am sure that I’m driving her nuts with what she views as my deviant/troubled/self-destructive behavior, which which consists of my keeping “strange” hours (sleeping from one to nine in the morning) and not going to the gym every day. I think she’s even got Sister in on this. If this keeps up, I’ll be a raving lunatic in no time. Read the rest of this entry »